To work or not to work…

So the past couple of weeks the main thing that has been on my mind is returning to work or staying home.  A very, hard decision. Josh told me that he would be supportive either way. 

I can honestly say that I enjoy my job, of course there are days that I would rather be at the mall than at my desk dealing with issues, but who wouldnt.    I talked to several friends and none of them had been in the same boat that I was, most of them had became parents first and then started their careers.   I LOVE being a mom, I can honestly say that he is the highlight of my life and the very best thing besides Josh of course, to happen to me.....but I have been working for the past 15 years.

So I told Josh that I was going to at least try to go back to work.   My sister-in-law, Carrie had agreed to babysitt at my house on Thursdays & Fridays but I needed to find someone for the two half days that I was going to work the split shift....so I asked around and got some referrals and met with one of the babysitters yesterday.....as I am sitting on the couch interviewing this person,  she was so sweet, she answered all my questions and was you could tell a great person, but she was still a stranger. I have a hard enough time leaving him with my mom, must less a stranger. I actually started crying ( I think its the hormones :-) ) I have waited a long time to be a mom so needless the thought of leaving my little one with someone I didnt know wasnt going to be easy, so I came home and emailed my work and asked if it would be possible to just work two evening and two days that way I wouldnt have to leave him with anyone I didnt really know.... and then I had to wait....

I am very  happy to say that work agreed to this....so now I get to the best of both worlds. Gideon will be with Aunt Carrie and Chloe on Thursdays and Fridays and with Daddy on Tuesday and Wednesday nights. And I will still be a full time mom.  

 I am one very happy, blessed Mom.