Restless

So the past two weeks it seems like I have had a lot on my mind, the day before Father's Day I learned that a friend of mine had committed suicide. He was 38 years old and had 3 adorable children. We had worked together for about 5 years at two different places, I hadn't really talked with him the past year or so, but at one time would of considered him a really close friend.

It has weighed on my mind lately. I have been blessed in life with tons of friends. Some have been/will be lifelong friends and others have only been for a season. Looking back if I would of told this person that in 5 years you are going to end your life, he would of laughed in my face and called me crazy. I wonder what changed that you would feel so hopeless and think this is the only way to solve "life's problems".

I feel extremely blessed in my life, I am married to a wonderful person, I have an adorable little boy, a little girl on the way, great family and my list goes on...but there have been times in my past that I struggled with life, but never was ending it an option. I believe in the "after life" and I also believe that the decisions we make here we will be accountable there.

I have struggled with this, I know I don't know the whole situation and I am sure I never will.

YouTube Choo Choos

YouTube on the TV has been an excellent tool for teaching G about various animals, music, muppets, construction vehicles, light sabers, swordfighting, and various other things, but one thing on there is his favorite thing to watch. Steam engine trains. Any time those are on, he will work his way up to sit on my lap and we can spend or thirty minutes just watching choo choos. Really he would watch more than that given the option. Anyway, it's one of those moments when your child is snuggled up against you and you think, "this is a moment I will think back on and smile about someday."







-Josh

Room in progress!

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So we have been working on the room and making great progress, here are the pictures so far. I can say that the best is yet to come. J has several projects in the works! Will post pictures when he is done.

Relapse...

So we moved G into his own bed when we got back from Cali. We thought it was perfect timing since he had slept in a big boy bed for 10 days. Today while working on Baby's room, some one had a relapse!! Thank goodness it was only for a short time.




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My new toy!

Anyone that knows me knows when it comes to baby gear there are 2 things I am super picky about and that is baby shoes and my stroller.

While in California and after doing much research I fell in love with the Phil & Ted stroller,( www.philandted.com ) it was the only one that I found that could be a single or double. The only problem with it was the price didn't match our budget even off Ebay. I started watching craigslist, and in 3 months only one was listed and sold an hour after it was listed. I finally decided to post a " wanted" ad, much to my suprise someone responded a month later!!! It is in brand new condition! And a price we could afford!! The couple we bought it from was great, we ended up hanging out at their house a while and teasingly I asked her if she was selling anything else like pedipeds and much to my suprise she was!! We bought baby ------ 2 adorable pairs!!

I call this a successful night!!

Go craigslist !


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G loves his new ride!!

Biker boy

We've been working on bike riding since spring and now G has pretty much mastered it. We bought him this bike last summer because it had rocket ships on it, then it stayed in storage the whole time. It has seen some very heavy use this year though. Check out the video.

Here's a picture too:




-J

FB Quotes worth mentioning...

So I have to admit I am somewhat of a FB junkie, I have an iphone so it give me constant access which is good and bad. I love it, our life is busy and this is one way that I can keep in touch with people quickly..it takes less than 2 minutes to say "Hey I hope you are having a great day" or "Happy Birthday, friend". The thing I have noticed is that people tend to post quotes, I love quotes and every now and then certain ones stick out to me more than others. My favorite quote of all times is "The sturdy oak is nothing but an acorn that held its ground". This week there where two that stuck out to me...

"God always answers, just sometimes the answer is no" and "In the kingdom of God, attitudes matter just as much as actions".

Go Daddy!!

Daddy is finishing up Baby Girl's room tonight! And then we are going to start doing the decorating painting, we will post pictures soon. So excited to get this part started since he has come up with some really cute ideas!!
I am so glad I have a creative husband .

I think she is going to love her room.


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28 weeks tomorrow...

So believe it or not time is flying with this pregnancy, the closer I get the more nervous I get. Yes, I am wishing my life away. I am not a good pregnant person, I worry over everything, some of this I think is due to going into preterm labor with G. I remember when I hit the 35 mark with G how relieved I was just knowing he would be ok outside of me...and of course being stubborn decided to wait and have to have a c-section.

This is our last pregnancy, so I do want to treasure every moment. Baby Girl is so active, I love feeling her move inside of me. She is a huge fan of big brother, it's super cute at night when I am putting him to sleep and he is talking to me that she goes crazy kicking and moving around. I think they will end up being the best of friends and the worst of enemies all in the same day.

This pregnancy is so different than it was with G. I don't know if it is because I am more aware of things or if it truly is different. We are going to start painting her room this week and happy to say that after ordering 3 different bedding sets, that one finally came in that was not on back order. My goal is to have her room done by the time we go to the reunion. We are pretty prepared for her, especially with clothes thanks to several friends!! and I have been stock piling diapers for a while. We still need to get some of the basics, but figure we have time for this.

So in less than 85 days we will be holding Baby ------ in our arms.

Kisses

Nothing is sweeter than a little boy running into the room while you are working and when you ask him what he needs he says "Give my momma kisses."

Life is good.

Happy Birthday, my sweet little boy

Two years ago a little boy came into my life and melted my heart in ways I couldn't even imagine. I didn't know that you could love someone so much or so deeply. He really is the apple of my eye. Happy Birthday, my sweet little boy.







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